Thursday, January 22, 2009

Attackers anonymous!

I wish there were a support group for young moms or such that have constant panics attacks. Luckily my don't effect me 24-7 but when they do it is BAD! I feel Kirk just wants to slap me sometimes. Although I KNOW he NEVER would!

I was talking with another mom the other day who kind of said the same things I was thinking. I was SO nice to talk to someone who understands. I have talked to other people who don't have anxiety and they seem to think you are a freak! Well I am not! I am totally perfectly fine. I just have issues with weird things and those THINGS change constantly. One day I can worry that when I am vaccuuming that I have missed a spot and things will grow there and take over our house. I can visualize is freaky. Same thing with driving...I can picture accidents happening in front of me and everything that follows. newspaper headlines and the whole bit. I have gotten that under control for the most part. It luckily is usually when I am all by myself.

I also have horrible nightmares where I can wake up sweating to death, but sometimes I sleep too hard that I can't wake up from them...that is the WORST.

Hopefully today levels off as I am getting projects done and the anxiety is dipping a little.
Off to finish projects around the house and for school/work.

Crazy weeks ahead!!!

1 comment:

  1. You'll have fun at the Speak. I spend enough time there as it is, so I think I'm going to stay home. . . have fun!