Nothing anymore

Well the latest forecast has come to officially 35.5 ft on Saturday! A whole foot and half lower than yesterday!

Reason alone to celebrate! Yipee!!!

Kids have been outside the last few days and going on walks and getting back in to normal spring/summer life. Kids are enjoying school and whats left of it. We haven't heard yet if St Joes will be making up that lost week of school. School Board decides and since my husband is on the school board I am hoping he is listening to me and my requests! Like that would happen! Thomas' school just got remodelled and it was completed so this week we have a new entrance and everything. New classrooms to use and it is so exciting! Everything looks so great!!! The final things in school are coming up like the school musical, kindgarten prayer service! FUN FUN FUN. I can't wait until Carter goes there next year! yeah baby!

Summer activites will be starting soon too, carter in golf, Anna in tennis, thomas in baseball and all the kidddos in swimming. We hope as a family this year to go somewhere this summer for a vacation. Any ideas? We will most likely land ourselves at Buffalo any chance we get!

Enjoying the spring weather and getting used to the idea of life being back to normal. Construction will start soon on the basement and life will be great!

Going to enjoy tax day today with a trip to Dairy Queen for their traditional shocolate sundae giveaway!!

Off to enjoy more spring like weather.

Getting ready for round two.

Well as many of you know we just finished up with a record flood. Well at least for now, another crest is headed our way mid Apr and it has a chance of meeting that same record or even breaking that one. Too much for me to handle. There is SO much I haven't gotten done because of this flood. I just want this all to go away.
March 21st was my moms 4 year anniversary of her passing and I am very upset I didn't get out to her gravesite. Luckily for me my excuse is she is surrounded by water. I hope to get out there before the next crest. Maybe tomorrow or Monday afternoon.
Kirk and I are getting everything situated in the basement. Things up and thrown out. Let me tell you not much is going back down. It has always felt crowded down there and now is my chance to thin things out! We are getting new flooring and getting two rooms redone. Hopefully a new shower too. We will see, it all depends on insurance. Helps when I work in that field! YAHOOIE!!

The thrift store will love us inthe next coming weeks. Going through clothes that don't fit kids anymore. I actually have found that I LOVE getting rid of stuff. ( Kirk has done this to me, damn him!) The first week of May is clean up week where we are allowed to pretty much put anything on the curb. Luckily for us it is extended due to so many homes having damaged basements and homes. Just cleaining out my house of unwanted crap makes my heart beat better on its own. There is so much stuff we gather and collect that we dont even realize. I was telling Kirk that even though we have most things upstairs already..We still have SO much downstairs still. washer Dryer, Sofa loveseat, entertainment unit, deep freezer, air hockey table, desk, etc etc etc! It never ends!

Not that I am not grateful for all these things. I can realize quickly how I would take it all for granted. I can't imagine losing my house. I feel so much for those in our area who did. Heartwrenching! I can't begin to imagine.
Well now that it is 830pm and none of my kiddos are down, I mist go and smack some butts. Jk Nathan is using potty time as an excuse to delay bedtime and I am TOO much of a softie!

Night all!

Holding on to my thoughts

Life has been crazy but I thought I should share that I am in need of some prayers...nothing serious but prayers for calmness. Anxiety has been high lately as well as increase in nightmares.
Hopefully this all ends soon!

It all stems from a little bit of everything. "T" has an appointment on Friday and I hope the xray shows improvement, if not ...I NEED a referral for a solution.
Flood Insurance has been crazy this week as well. App after app...no complaints but just proves we are in for something this spring.
Two "SO" moved into the north side of town and that always worries me. I know more live here all the time, but the reminder that there are even more scares me. You just hold tighter to your loved ones.

I have included a favorite pic from the happiest day of my life...marrying my ROCK! I love you Kirk!

Prayers would be appreciated.
Thanks to all who read.

Getting somewhere.

Well today was the FIRST Friday in a while that I actually got some much needed housework done. Got the two bathrooms clean as well as the kitchen and laundry room. I still need to vaccuum the rooms and leave time to make supper. Tonight we are off to FF game so that will be fun for the kids.
Just a short post today as my anxiety is getting somewhere but still worrying about some stuff. Not as bad as the other day, still some there but not as much.
Hopefully after I get started on supper another 45 min walk will be in order. The kids LOVE it and the new snow will make it even more fun!

Flooded with items on my to do list.

Well since this snow and rain season has begun...so has my new venture into the flood insurance world. I have about 4-10 calls a day with the exception of today with only 1 call. It is stressful for me but I am getting somewhere now.

With flooding comes my nesting mode of getting everything in plastic containers and up off the ground. My goal is for Kirk to understand my anxiety of it all. I have lived for here all but 2 years of my 30 years of life. I remember the flood of 97 and having to walk from the pet shop to get home...NOT FUN and in NO way am I doing that with 4 kids! YIKES!!!

So going through the storage room and finally getting rid of ALOT of crap is making me feel alot better. Plenty of boxes for the thift store and trash for May clean up week...that can't come soon enough! I can't wait! There are days i wish I lived in WF that allowed you to put anything and everything on the curb!!! SO EXCITING!!! But low and behold Moorhead only gives you a one day a year! PLFF!!!!

Kirk is getting some household crap under his belt and getting that done before this flood season starts. Getting my anxiety under control knowing that if we do have to vacate the premise...we move in with the in laws. The is going to be a LONG spring!!! Things on the list that won't go away for awhile.

Hoping to see summer soon and plan all the kids activites!!!

BAD DAY

Having a HORRIBLE day....hoping things calm down...having panic attacks that only my 4 year old is calming down for me...SICK i know....Hoping to play some Chutes and Ladders today with the kids and sleep with them during naptime.

Got thoughts in my mind that won't stop....my mom, my horrible health, my visions of me at least walking the 5k for the marathon. I would HOPE I could do at least that!

I am failing miserably today and not very happy with some people today either....just a BAD day overall!!!

I got comments last night I took with a grain of salt at Thomas' school dance...many of the teachers mentioned how good I look...people I still want to lose at least 20 pounds and I feel like people think I am crazy....I am so unhealthy right now and people have no idea how horrible I feel about it...I jsut can't get out of this funk!!! It is not a horrible health/body image problem...I really need to lose at least 20 pounds...I am fearing that if I don't i will end up like my mother....6 ft under ground at too young of an age....

Attackers anonymous!

I wish there were a support group for young moms or such that have constant panics attacks. Luckily my don't effect me 24-7 but when they do it is BAD! I feel Kirk just wants to slap me sometimes. Although I KNOW he NEVER would!

I was talking with another mom the other day who kind of said the same things I was thinking. I was SO nice to talk to someone who understands. I have talked to other people who don't have anxiety and they seem to think you are a freak! Well I am not! I am totally perfectly fine. I just have issues with weird things and those THINGS change constantly. One day I can worry that when I am vaccuuming that I have missed a spot and things will grow there and take over our house. I can visualize EVERYTHING...it is freaky. Same thing with driving...I can picture accidents happening in front of me and everything that follows. newspaper headlines and the whole bit. I have gotten that under control for the most part. It luckily is usually when I am all by myself.

I also have horrible nightmares where I can wake up sweating to death, but sometimes I sleep too hard that I can't wake up from them...that is the WORST.

Hopefully today levels off as I am getting projects done and the anxiety is dipping a little.
Off to finish projects around the house and for school/work.

Crazy weeks ahead!!!